"...thus far, I’ve only been in a drawing board phase…a dreaming phase."
In my last blog post It Took Me Seven Years to Graduate I touched on my commencement which was this past Sunday.
It’s kind of funny because at first I wasn’t all too amped about sitting through a graduation ceremony with 1100 of my peers, only 10 of which I knew and like two of whom I knew their names…
And even though I sat between two strangers (one of which coughed non-stop), endured a key note speaker whom I did not particularly enjoy and stood in heels for way way way too long…I am beyond grateful for all of it. Even though the completion of my degree was solidified months ago; this ceremony sealed something for me, in my mind and in my spirit.
“Truly I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.” Matthew 18:18
At the end of the ceremony, when instructed by the dean, I moved my tassel from the right side of my cap to the left, a gesture that displays my new status as a graduate.
Immediately I felt an overwhelming feeling of accomplishment that brought me to tears, as though my father in heaven was saying, “well done.” Following the celebration was a feeling so surreal. It felt like everything that was encapsulated in the season of my life that I will forever call “college” was finally really over. Now that I’d walked, there was nothing else to take care of in that department.
And what freedom.
Speaking to my Anthony on yesterday, I told him that going through commencement is like putting away an old notebook and receiving a brand new beautiful journal with crisp blank pages.
Pages just waiting to be filled with ideas, plans, stories…and most importantly newness. That ceremony for me marked a new season, and I am so excited!
The acknowledgment of my accomplishment in a way gave me permission to pursue new endeavors.
Ironically…so much of what I’ve already been writing about in this blog is new endeavors. But thus far, I’ve only been in a drawing board phase…a dreaming phase. Now, however, I’ve undoubtedly entered the “doing” phase. And it’s time to put everything I have been dreaming of in motion.
So what’s the point?
I guess…it’s all about the process. Finishing things opens up the opportunities to do new things… and not finishing things inevitably hinders you from moving forward in certain areas….
Finish what you can…it can only take you higher.
With love always,
Tiffany Trawick ♥